There’s something that not a lot of people know, but before my husband and I got married, we got pregnant when I was 18. It was a really difficult time because I knew I did something wrong and I knew that telling our families would be such a difficult thing to do. My mom got pregnant when she was young too and she was a single mom for a while. I didn’t want to disappoint her. I remember trying to tell her, just crying and asking if she would still love me no matter what before I told her. I knew I let her down and I had a difficult time dealing with everything. My family all found out and was upset, some weren’t coming to my graduation anymore, and there was just tension all around. I felt like everything was falling apart with my family. Then one day I was having bad cramps all day long. In the afternoon, while walking home, I all the sudden had blood running down my leg. I tried to cover it and get home as soon as possible. I called my mom crying and she told me I was having a miscarriage. I felt like I just lost everything. I was too young to have a baby and be a mom. I wasn’t ready, but I knew it was going to happen and I already loved that baby so much. It was one of the hardest days of my life.
Fast forward to the summer of 2016 when my husband and I were celebrating our second wedding anniversary at Disneyland. We had been talking about having kids someday in the near future, but weren’t quite expecting to yet. At this time, we were living in our first home together, my husband was a math teacher so he had the summer off, and I was working in a daycare as well as a college bookstore.
I was so excited for our summer trip to Disneyland. This would be our third time there together. We went for our honeymoon, one year anniversary, and now our second anniversary too! For our honeymoon, we drove there, but we flew there these next two times. We always go to Downtown Disney to walk around, shop, and get ice cream. We had three day park passes and had the hardest time deciding which park to spend two days at. I’ll never forget shopping on this trip in the parks because we kept seeing really cute baby stuff and we would say “this would be cute to buy when we know we’re having a baby”. Then we saw a Star Wars onesie that had Yoda with a mickey mouse hat and ice cream bar that said “you must be this tall to ride”. It was so cute and we decided to buy it and keep it tucked away for the future.
We arrived home and it was only a week after our trip that I thought I should maybe take a pregnancy test. I didn’t really tell my husband yet and then the test was positive! I was so nervous! I took the star wars onesie to my husband to tell him we were having a baby and he was so excited!
We talked about how to tell our families, but sometimes things don’t go to plan. We were supposed to have dinner with my parents and our loan officer because she was my moms friend and she had a gift for us since we just moved into our home a few months prior. The dinner was at a place on the water so we were on a deck that kept swaying and I was getting so nauseous. My mom kept saying that this place had the best strawberry margaritas. Everyone ordered one, but I said I didn’t want one. Of course they tried to get me to try it and then my step dad said to my mom that he thinks something is wrong with me. My mom jokingly asked if I was pregnant and Sean and I looked at each other and I just started crying. I couldn’t help, but think back to the past and felt that somehow my family would be upset or unhappy. They were so excited to be grandparents and my mom wished I would have told her sooner. That was so much weight off my shoulders.
I was so excited to be pregnant and to become a mom. I always knew I wanted to be a mom and couldn’t wait to see what this next chapter of life would bring for Sean and I.